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It's a story I wrote...I like it a lot. I got the idea from a rose tht my boyfriend got me for Valentine's Day.




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Dean’s thrusts were brutal, pushing and pulling out in a steady rhythm as Castiel’s head hung low as if in shame. The only sounds were the slap of skin on skin and the soft grunts that both men let out. It was rough and unyielding, no passion or emotion behind the fingers that dug into his too-sharp hipbones. There hadn’t been in years. This was routine. He was being used.
And God help him, he’d take it. This was better than nothing. This way, he didn’t have to be subject to Dean’s cold stare. He could watch the blankets in front of him and focus on holding back his tears. They didn’t have time for tears. After, he’d need some amphetamines for sure. Castiel’s fingers twisted in the dirty bed-sheets as Dean pummeled into him mercilessly. With a twist of his hips, suddenly, Dean was hitting that spot and Cas was climbing the ladder to climax. He fisted his cock, stripping it quickly before shooting all over the sheets. Dean followed right behind with just a grunt and then he was pulling out and tucking himself back into his jeans.
This was the part he hated. The part he dreaded every time they…did whatever this was. No matter how much Cas begged and pleaded in the past, Dean never stayed. He never said a word, just yanked his hand out of the former angel’s grasp and walked out. It killed Cas. He never knew which time would be their last; when Dean would go out on a mission and just…not come back.
So he’d stopped begging. He stopped pleading; even asking. He just rolled over and kept quiet, waiting for Dean to leave before he’d take his pills and pass out.
This time, though, Dean stood there. He stared at the creamy expanse of Castiel’s back and clenched his jaw. It took Castiel a good thirty seconds to look back over his shoulder. “What?”
“Nothin’.” Dean answered gruffly.
“Must be something.” He turned back and sighed. “You usually just go crawl in bed with Risa or Jane or Deb-“
Castiel fell silent.
Dean sighed. “You’re a dick.”
Castiel tensed but didn’t speak.
“Not gonna say anything?”
Castiel said nothing.
“You’re hopeless.”
Cas closed his eyes tight. “Then leave.”
Dean frowned. He’d wanted a reaction. A blow-up. Something like the old Cas. The one he used to love before everything went to shit and this Cas took his place.
“You used to ask me to stay.” He said without thinking.
“Is that what you want?” Cas asked calmly.
Dean frowned.
“You wouldn’t so what’s the point? I don’t have the energy to hope anymore.” Cas sighed. “So leave like you want to.”
“Don’t tell me what to do.”
Cas closed his eyes. “Please…” He didn’t know if he could take this much longer.
“I used to love you.”
“Dean…please don’t.”
“It was us against the world. You and me-“
“-cursed or not.”
“I’m sorry.”
“No you’re not.” Cas’ voice cracked. “You’re playing sorry.”
Dean looked down and then sighed, walking out without another word.
And Cas fell apart. Years of pain and frustration poured out onto his pillowcase. He was broken. He was broken and nobody cared.
“Nobody cares that you’re broken, Cas!”
Maybe things hadn’t changed all that much.
Used To Love You
Basically a whole lot of hurt Castiel and Endverse!Dean being a dick.


Artist | Student | Varied
United States
I am Angie. I adore Green Day and My Chemical Romance alike, thought I prefer 80's and 90's rock. My hero is Gerard Way. That one man has inspired me and has saved my life and for that, I could never thank him enough. Music is my's gotten me through a lot of tough times...and no matter what, I know it will never let me down. Noel Fielding is my inspiration for life and fashion. He is another one of my heroes because he can always make me smile without fail. I'm a feminist and a strong supporter of the LGBTQ community, but I believe in equality for every human being. I draw, write, and doodle a lot. :) I'm thinking about a career in art therapy at the moment. Shaun of the Dead is my favorite movie and Iron Man is my favorite hero, Loki being my favorite villain of course. I'm also a big fan of BBC's Sherlock, Supernatural, Game of Thrones, The Mighty Boosh, Noel Fielding's Luxury Comedy, and The Walking Dead. I ship Frostiron, Stony/Superhusbands/Superfamily, Thorki/Thunderfrost, Spideypool, Johnlock, Destiel, Sastiel, Wincest, Wincestiel, Spirk, Howince, Noelian and Jimlock/Sheriarty (as well as a shit ton of others). I love Star Trek. Leonard Nimoy is my one true Spock, but Zachary is fucking awesome too. Live long and prosper <3

Current Residence: Farmersville, OH
deviantWEAR sizing preference: medium
Favourite genre of music: 80's and 90's Rock
Favourite photographer: idk
Favourite style of art: pencil/charcoal/color pencil/painting
MP3 player of choice: Anything that plays music is fabulous :)
Favourite cartoon character: Zim
Personal Quote: "Life is nonsense. Wear silly shoes." -Noel Fielding
  • Listening to: a dove and some birds outside
  • Reading: I Heart You, You Haunt Me
  • Watching: Secret Window laters :)
  • Playing: piano
  • Eating: patato chips
  • Drinking: iced tea
so..someone asked me who Tre' Cool was...i almost peed cause this is my fave question to answer :))

This is exactly what i said:

holy shit...Who the fuck is Tre' Cool?...oh God, how do i explain this? He is the awesomest, sexiest, most talented, craziest, most hyper and energetic ADHD drummer in the world...He is the drummer of the well known band, Green Day..he has stunning blue eyes..the most heartwarming smile in the world...He snorts donut sprinkles and has the attention span of a squirrel...He beats the living shit out of the drums...he is very close and personal with everyone...and according to Billie Joe Armstrong "someone he can shower naked with"...He wrote the songs Dominated Love Slave and Rock n Roll Girlfriend...he's a liberal that smokes lettuce and a shit ton of weed...He's the only man in the world who would name his son Frankito...(his name is Frank Edwin Wright III but former band members dubbed him Tre Cool..meaning "Very Cool" in French and it stuck)...He has only 1 testicle (due to a most unfortunate unicycle accident in high school)...mostly, he dont give a single fuck about what anyone cares about him...he's my idol and role of few of my heroes...

I <3 Tre' Cool

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Moniii22 Featured By Owner Dec 22, 2014  Student General Artist
Okay so i was reading your debiantID and........... Why the hell have we not spoken before dude you are awesome we've got to chat sometime
XxRazorbladeLovexX Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015  Student General Artist
Oh, hello! Cheers, love! I'd be happy to talk any time! xx
Moniii22 Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2015  Student General Artist
haha awesome :)
marajade3 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Okay, you like Drop Dead Fred, The Avengers, Tony Stark, AND Sheldon. I'm sorry, but I'm forced to add you to my watch list for being so awesome. haha :D
XxRazorbladeLovexX Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Aww omg. Thank you so much!
marajade3 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome! :D I wanna gush about The Avengers with you. haha
XxRazorbladeLovexX Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student General Artist
lol awesome (: Feel free <3
Lia-in-Wonderland Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav' !
XxRazorbladeLovexX Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2013  Student General Artist
You're welcome (:
1CrazyVegetarian Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2013
Green Day, MCR, *and* Avengers..?


Can I marry you lol?
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